The Story Behind the Recover Your Soul Memoir and the Journey I Never Expected

Something sacred is unfolding in my life.

After more than a year of writing, reflecting, healing, and often questioning myself along the way, my memoir Recover Your Soul: A Spiritual Journey of Healing from Addiction, Codependency, and People Pleasing is making its way into the world.

this is not the book I thought I was writing.

When I first began, I believed I was creating a book about the spiritual process that saved my life. I wanted to share the tools, the steps, the understanding that helped me move from a life of addiction, codependency, and control into something more peaceful and grounded.

But as I sat with the stories and allowed them to come forward, it became clear that the process could not be separated from the path I walked that created the Process.

This book became a Spiritual memoir.

Not because I set out to tell my story in that way, but because the truth of my healing asked to be shared through lived experience. The unraveling, the moments of deep pain, the questioning, the surrender, and ultimately the remembering of who I truly am beneath all of the patterns I had built my life around.

Writing has never been where I felt the most confident. I am someone who speaks, who connects, who processes life through sharing in real time. Sitting down to write a book felt overwhelming at first, and there were many moments where I wondered if I was capable of bringing something like this into the world. What I discovered is that I did not need to become a different version of myself to do it. I simply needed to be willing to tell my truth.

This book was not written from a place of perfection. It was written from a place of honesty. And through that honesty, something much deeper began to emerge.

As the manuscript came together, I was faced with a quiet but important decision. How much of the pain do I share? How much of the darkness do I bring onto these pages? There is a part of us that can believe that our story has more value if we reveal every detail of our suffering. But what I came to understand is that I was not writing to relive the pain. I was writing to illuminate the path through it.

This is not just my story. It is our story.

The patterns of codependency, the exhaustion of people pleasing, the need to control what feels unmanageable, the belief that someone or something outside of us must change for us to be okay. These are experiences that so many of us share, even if they show up in different ways.

The intention of this book is not to prove how hard life has been. It is to offer a reflection of what is possible when we begin to turn inward and see from a healed vision.

When I received the first printed copy of the book and held it in my hands, I felt a wave of emotion that surprised me. It truly felt like a birth. Not just of the book, but of a version of myself who was willing to be seen in a new way. And almost immediately, the familiar voices of doubt came forward.

Who do you think you are to share this? What if it is not enough? What if people do not understand?

And yet, the work I have been practicing for all these years met me in that moment. I did not push those thoughts away. I did not try to silence them. I simply noticed them, with compassion, and returned to what I know to be true.

This book is not about me proving myself, it is about sharing my hero soul's journey of healing. It is about you finding yourself somewhere within these pages. It is about that quiet voice inside of you, the one that has always been there, even in your hardest moments, beginning to rise just a little bit stronger.

It is about remembering that you were never broken, only disconnected from your own truth.

If you see yourself in any part of this journey, if you have felt the weight of trying to hold everything together, if you have questioned whether there is another way to live, then this book was written for you.

Our healing matters. Not just for ourselves, but for everyone we touch.

And your soul has always known the way.

watch the episode where I share more on the journey of writing the book and the amazing support from my collaborator and writing coach Mattie Murrey.

The book will be available on April 13th on Amazon!!! Visit the website to join Rev Rachel on the book journey.